What Did You Expect?
Expectations will trip you up every time! By now, you might think I would know better. I set myself up by allowing my mind to imagine and plan – Want to make God laugh? Make a plan. It’s true. In my life things are easier, happier, much more agreeable when I allow nature to just take its course. When I meddle or plan too much things seem to disappoint.
Is it possible then to not expect? Keeping an open mind and finding good in whatever arises is something I am trying hard to learn. Making plans is often necessary but the expectation aspect is where it gets sticky. Take this blog for instance. I imagined back when I started it that I would have at least one or two people exchanging ideas with me by now but it just hasn’t happened. I wanted this to be a place for dialogue and thoughtful discourse but it’s just a place I come now to speak my mind and add a nice image to illustrate it. It is not what I expected, but it’s okay.
I am trying hard to carry out my efforts to continue to grow and think. Lately I have struggled with disappointment. I expected more by now. But really, when I consider for a moment, I am happy to be still trying at all! Expectations, dreams, and desires are mind cotton candy; They are fluffy concoctions that promise delight but never really satisfy.
I wonder if I can set courses and make plans and find something worthwhile and positive no matter what the outcome in the things I choose to do? I am going to try.